are people still on here?

this brings back lots and lots of memories.  holler at me if you are on here still!

wow. some people have really gone downhill. coke heads? yes. surprised? no. lame? yes.

I will be in Lincoln from tomorrow until Tuesday. CALL ME. We must PARTY!

Date:	2005-11-05 02:54
Subject:	drunk post
Security:	Public
Mood:	drunk

here it is.. doesnt fdunc an look happy>? m,an we kiscked ass at cranium. this is your brain on vbodka.

Date:	2005-10-27 17:51
Subject:	Things are finally getting a move on!
Security:	Public
Mood:	go-get it

Well, I stopped being a lazy bitch, and started gettin' shit done. I have been exercising... and have officially lost 50 lbs since my surgery! WOOOOOOT!

I have applied for school, and am currently filling out the FAFSA.

I have attended job interviews (though none have produced the fruit of life, that's okay).

I have decided to grow my hair out. I have decided this thousands of times before, and got impatient. This will be a good way to practice patience. We'll see if I can do it. How long? Who knows.

Last night was interesting. I was very grumpy and irritable, and on top of that, Duncan and I have a never-ending list of shit to do. My bright idea was to think about all of it in it's impossibility, knowing that my PMS was raging and out of control. I set myself up for a facedown-in-the-pillows cryfest, shouting about things that I can't changed. Poor Duncan, just sitting there not knowing what to do or say (who would?). It was an interesting situation, because I hadn't been that emotional (with any emotion, really) in a long time. I just felt like I needed to cry.

I woke up this morning with my monthly visitor laying beside me (figuratively). And even after an emotionally uneasy evening the night before and a restless night , I felt refreshed. Today, I listened to Aqualung, Modest Mouse, Ed Harcourt, and Rilo Kiley with the windows down, enjoying the perfection of the weather. Carleigh and I shared the swings at a park with some little children and their mother, and it was a beautiful day.

I am feeling very... euphoric.

Could it be the Midol??

the wedding was beautiful. small, but beautiful.

i missed a lot of people there...

but now i am a married old woman (rriiiiight)..

Ashleigh Martin. That is the name I have to sign now. Because that's who I am.

Weird, huh?

We are the COOLEST married couple you know.

Date:	2005-09-15 16:34
Subject:	Let the festivities begin.
Security:	Public
Mood:	uncomfortable

So, pretty much everything is ready.

The first guest came into town today. My mom's mom.

Let the games begin.

PS--I hope this fucking rain stops soon.. preferrably before.. right now.

Date:	2005-09-08 23:00
Subject:	FUCK
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed

Tomorrow will be my 8th day without my anti depressive medication.

Fuck not having health insurance.

Date:	2005-09-02 13:52
Subject:	Whew
Security:	Public
Mood:	cranky

Monday I got my band tightened (in my tummy)..

It was too tight, and all week I could only keep liquids down (water, soup, slushies).. Had NO energy.

I lost 9 lbs.. and today I had it loosened a little.

Woot.

Getting close to the wedding.. don't really know who is coming. ergg.

Date:	2005-08-28 22:16
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	bitchy

My first real celebrity encounter. Well, I guess he's not really a  

He came into eat at Jose Peppers with his parents last night and I was the lucky bitch who got to serve him. He was nice.....sort of...... but a picky bitch. He asked me to "dim the lights" because it was too bright in his face. WHAT is THAT? And their chips were too "crumbly" so I had to get them new ones.

Then they left me a shitty tip.

Fuck Celebrities. Especially "not really" celebrities.

an original.

i got one.

and nine games.

it kicks ass.

Date:	2005-08-22 16:50
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah

Yet another time when everyone is starting school BUT me. Though, I am teaching myself Spanish with Bookstore Workbooks. Woo!

I am hearing that some invitations got lost in the mail?

If you are interested in my wedding:

September 17th
5:00pm
Antioch Park
Merriam Kansas

Call me or email me for directions if you want.

I will start school and get another tattoo soon.

So much to do before September 17th.

I will live in France at some point in my life. Period.

Today was my bridal shower.

First bridal shower ever where the cops were called.

Hmph.

I'm tired.

clint--

can you send me your address? Probably just to your parent's house.

Thanks!

Date:	2005-08-02 21:19
Subject:	Um, Hello?
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused

Attention (mostly Tyson).

I have just confirmed my purchase of tickets for the Ben Folds/Rufus Wainright show on the 13th.

I peed a little in my pants, just thinking about it.

Let me know if you need a place to stay, or want to meet up, or whatever.

MUAH!

Date:	2005-07-27 14:53
Subject:	fleas and nervous breakdowns
Security:	Public
Mood:	discontent

My animals have (had) fleas. We spent the last 2 days washing everything, flea bombing our apartment, and treating them with veterinary strength, hardcore flea goo. No more fleas.

Last night I had a nervous breakdown. Right after I decided I am going to school for cosmetology in October. Right after a fight with my family. Right after I ordered my wedding dress (with 1.5 months to go, big mistake). Right after I realized that I don't have any real friends within reach. Right after my bridesmaid told me she may not be able to come to my bridal shower. Right after I realized that I am almost 20 and am working as a waitress for christ's sake (which could be justified if paired with school). Right after I wondered how we will pay for a $200 perscription and have money for rent. This is where I stop.

I will be a cosmetologist. What of it? I will do hair, nails, makeup, pedicures.. It will be AWESOME!

And I got a kick ass haircut yesterday. When my digital camera is found, I will post pictures?

I must be slave to the man tonite.

Date:	2005-07-19 00:15
Subject:	fuck off.
Security:	Public
Mood:	bitchy

fuck anyone who talks about me behind my back.

i am getting married, get the fuck over it. you hardly know me anymore.

I officially have the internet (and cable) at my apartment!!!! WOOOOOT! I need AIM screen names ASAP.

PS-- I also need good music to download. I am making mixes out my ass.

PSS--my screen name is locolady17

Date:	2005-07-11 14:30
Subject:	Come Visit Me!
Security:	Public
Mood:	hopeful

Okay people. The weekend of August 5-7 is open for me. The 6th is my Bridal Shower, and I have the whole weekend off. Come down and we can go to Worlds of Fun and/or Oceans of Fun.

I think Whitney is coming down that weekend, if you want to plan a caravan or something. PLEEEAAASSSEEE????